What If?

One of my professors asked me, “What is the biggest challenge in your life?” I was a bit silent for one moment, thinking about the best answer that I can give her. And then I thought, my biggest challenge in my life is the fact that I was here studying as a Computer Science student. My professor asked me why and then I answered her honestly.

I never planned myself being here. I actually want to be in the fashion industry and not in the computer industry. I was just influenced by my sister and brother who are both engineers that’s why I was here. For me, the fact that I was able to stay until my fourth year in college makes it the biggest challenge in my life because I did a job well done and I got my degree even though I am not that interested with what I am doing in this field.

And so my professor started to wonder, “do you have any regrets that you chose this path instead of the one that you actually planned?”

I immediately said NO! Because I know that I’ve given my whole effort, time and almost my whole life just to finish my degree and I know I’ve reached my own definition of success.

But now I’m starting to wonder, “What if I chose to be in the field that I want? Will I be happier? Will I be able to have a successful home business or even my own company for my unique fashion designs? Will I be known in the fashion industry and be a fashion icon?”

These are the things that I am trying to seek for answers. I know it is not yet too late for me. I’m still young and I believe I still have the chance to fulfill my dreams. I guess I should stop wondering “what if?” and rather start searching for myself and discover what is truly destined for me.