Effin Pain

I was badly hurt. I was somehow accused of doing wrong and I really feel bad about it. Yes, I’ve been going home so late for the past days, but that’s all because of my heavy duties at school. I’m a third year student now, so what do you guys expect?

I mean, I’m not mad, but my point is, why does he have to say those words? Why does he have or should I say “they” have to be so judgmental when it comes to my friends, companies or even my boyfriend?

Come on, they really don’t have any idea on what I am going through right now with my studies. I am almost giving up because I’m really having a rough time. I’m not even sleeping for so many days because of my thesis, case studies and all that, and yet, they will just hurl some negative thoughts about me.

I mean it, I am badly hurt! They never showed me any appreciation, support and care. Even when I belonged in the Dean’s List, I didn’t feel that they became proud or happy. They never appreciated it because they are just focused with my flaws.

It is very sad to think about it. I am so pressured, stressed out and even tired and explaining because I know that it is just not worth it. Oh well, I guess, I’m not good enough for them. Good thing that I still have my friends who continuously support me and care for me. And thanks to Ronie by the way, for understanding everything.