My Reverie

Why am I thinking of this “person” all the time? Why do I feel so worried every time this “person” is not texting me? Why am I even putting my own life in the pedestal I’ve made myself? Why am I even asking these effin things? Hahahaha…

Things are becoming too complicated for me. Everything is confusing but I think it’s just a matter of controlling my feelings but unfortunately I don’t know how! I swear it’s killing me. I know I’m just expecting for something that I know will never happen. It’s stupid right? I guess I’m currently stuck in the middle of nowhere.

I’m starting to feel the pain and I think I’m the one putting myself into this. I’m too imbecile to fall in love with the wrong person though I know that this “person” is really nice and wonderful. I have no one to blame but myself for letting my feelings fall so deep without considering the fact that this “person” might not be that interested. How can I stop this if I’m already stuck? How will I end this thing if I haven’t reached the beginning? Hahaha… So pathetic! I guess I just have to accept the effin consequences of my actions.

Errr… I’m starting to become a little mushy and I so hate it!!